jülesJan 1, 20232 min readthe irony is not lost on meas i sit in the last hour of 2022, i think of how differently i am ending this year from last year, i feel the most in touch with myself...
jülesDec 12, 20224 min readlaying to rest my resentment and regretresentment, according to google is multi-layered (as most feelings are) emotion comprised of disappointment, disgust and anger. another...
jülesDec 4, 20224 min readblogs are just electronic, public diariesmy blog is* i have this inflated idea that my thoughts deserve to be elevated, to be shared publicly, because my feelings/wants/needs...
jülesNov 30, 20223 min readon synagogue and shedding skinsgrowing with grief pictured above: my late father's scarf next to a talit (jewish prayer shawl) hanging over the pews of my home...
jülesNov 22, 20223 min readsisterhood of the traveling shirtof the slowly dwindling list of Big Regrets in my life, one of the more painful ones is my lack of courage. in my formative years;...
jülesNov 22, 20224 min readbidding farewell to that which has moved ontoday i lost my siblings skateboard. i’d gotten a lot of compliments on it too, it was a really solid board - great decal, sturdy. i took...
jülesNov 12, 20223 min readtacobell and tearstoday i cried more than usual, i saw wakanda forever because i was granted the opportunity through work. grief is a prominent theme,...
jülesNov 8, 20221 min readgarage band bluestoday i downloaded 10 songs from my late father’s garageband collection. it was the first time i’d been to my childhood home in a few...
jülesNov 4, 20224 min readsome plants need less wateri have a plant, named gouda, ironically because they're a holey plant, so logically, their name should be something like swiss, the...
jülesOct 28, 20222 min readreconnecting with healthy habitsrather than this feeling like screaming into the void like it used to, feels like a documentation of my journey..in a way unlike a log,...
jülesOct 22, 20223 min readreturning to realitygate 42 terminal B i have about 2 hours left to my return flight to new york. i spent the first hour napping, and conserving energy....
jülesOct 19, 20223 min readtrapped in a past that didn't belong to meon the plane ride to Colorado, i was joking with a fellow Jew (he let me shake his lulav and etrog in the airport!) about how I didn’t do...
jülesOct 4, 20225 min readon security blankets and touchstonesyesterday i finally signed paperwork for a therapy practice, called ally (actually!!! wild name, which i am very excited about), and i...
jülesOct 2, 202211 min readunderstanding my roots: a reflection on my abusive mother abstract: i am tired of dragging around this expired baggage, my skeletons coming with me everywhere and me almost proudly displaying...
jülesSep 30, 20228 min readon representation: a happy lifei watched an amazing show thanks to the kindest invitation from Pilar, a sibling who is a foster parent and a badass (community, family,...
jülesSep 18, 20223 min readon rowing machines and regretso at this current (LOVELY) catsitting set up i have going, there is a rowing machine in the basement. i’ve used rowing machines before,...
jülesSep 4, 20222 min readresponding to a questionthe closest i've ever experienced True Silence is when i've been upstate, in the middle of the night, in the winter. because it's...
jülesJul 27, 20222 min read7/27 - some musings and brief reflectionsinstead of worrying about how my words will be received, i have to remind myself that this digital scape is for me. and moreso than that,...
jülesJul 9, 20222 min readbetter late than never!it is better to do things retro-actively than to never do them at all. there is no statute of limitations on achieving internal...
jülesJul 1, 20222 min readprocessing: pure joywow. all i can say is that my present reality is quite honestly surreal. it's funny to think about how if you told me a year ago, i'd...
